A Good Book, The Beach, And My Dog....And of Course A Little Vino

Sometimes I think I am not like most 27 year olds (eessh....27...still so fresh and hard to type). In a lot of ways I feel older, more boring sometimes, more mature at times, lamer, behind etc. I consider myself a social person but there are still a lot of social situations that make me very uncomfortable. I have never been the bar type. The bar where all you can do is stand, fight your way to get a drink, and have to dress like a hooch. Nope...pretty sure I went to a bar on Wednesday with my roommate and I had on flip flops and little to no makeup. I will never, not be the girl in flip flops. This appearance might not garner me much attention...but at least I am comfortable. We didn't last long at that bar either...as my roommate is much like me...except dresses way cuter and has better shoes :) So we ended up meeting Jake at a more low key, chill place where we could actually grab a table and have a conversation...waaaaay more my speed. I do love to talk after all.

I have a hard time figuring myself out sometimes because I like to drink...ok...love to drink but yet have no desire to stay out multiple nights in a row til 2am closing the bar down, dancing, and holding my hair back as I puke in the toilet. I am not even a night person and never have been...staying up until midnight is late for me. I like to go out just as much as I like to stay in. I have always been able to piddle around the house/apartment for hours....doing nothing. Currently, I am housesitting again on the island of Coronado and think to myself how amazing and perfect this weekend will be. Me, a few good books, some coffee, some wine, a little college football, and some beach time with the pup. Wow...that last sentence makes me sound 45 years old and straight out of some Renee Zelweggar movie. LAME. However, as I get older I am trying to realize and be ok with the fact I will never fit a mold. I march to a different beat...not in the sense I am sooo unique and such a cool individual but more so that I have never been typical for my age and never will be. In my adult life most of my friends are older than me and I have the best of time with them...I am meeting typical mid 20's people in Cali and finding...I don't "get" them or have much in common. I shouldn't be surprised I guess....

So as I get older I am trying to accept who I am and what my life is and go from there. You can't give yourself a timeline...bc then you will always be disappointed when you don't accomplish everything at just the right time. I am learning from now on I will take my life one year at a time...planning a year is easy enough. So for this year I am in SoCal...and loving it. Next year...who knows...I will start thinking about that plan in 2011.

My goal for this year in SoCal besides relaxing, resting, and enjoying the experience is to travel as much as I can to see parts of the country that are easily accessible to San Diego. Apparently within hours of me are some cool towns and sites to see. I find it amazing that San Diego has no real seasons yet an hour from us there is a cute town called Julian that does..and within 1 -2 hours there will be snow! The best of both worlds...beach right outside my door, seasons, and snow within driving distance. I see some awesome day and weekend trips in my future.

I am also hoping to start volunteering some since I have mornings off. My first will hopefully be working at some type of soup kitchen for Thanksgiving. This has always been on my "To Do" list and I am hoping to make it happen this year! The older I get I am also realizing the importance to pay it forward and become a little less self absorbed...I have been given amazing opportunities and have been lucky in life...so time to do a little less for me and a little more for others.

I am finding I have so much still I want to do and see and so, so many places I want to travel...that I worry I will never fit it all in. Ireland is itching at me these days and I am thinking this summer will be a great time for a really great trip....